Closure

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I keep coming back to your essence time and time again. And then I beat myself up while asking why. I do this because to this day you have left me no ryhme, no reason; you never told me what I did wrong. Did you amass me from the gutter's moss to make you think you can discard me at your will; leaving me to pick up the heavy- laden pieces?

In numerous ways and cunningly formulated strategies, I ask relentlessly but I am continuosly expelled. But I love you, Good Heavens I do but whenever my heart screams those three sharp words, only hardened sound- proof walls slap me in the face. No response. And then I bleed. Profusely!

I gave you the best parts of my being. I gave you "me". Though you were not able to exist in my world as I would have so desiredd, I would figure that at least you could explain to me why you've left me searching the universe for answers that mock me while I sleep. Not even my dreams are safe from your presence; my subconsious caves in when your memories come sweeping.

I pray Karma finds you and I hope she forgives you because I cannot and I will not. You used me as your pedestal and here I am still struggling to lift your heavy, dead weight.

Release me, I plead, as my knees graze fiercely under the foundation of pain that you left me to absorb.
I do not ask for much. I do not want you or your time. 

I only want closure! Tell me why.........please.................

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