Triggered

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If you think you fear a loaded gun, you truly do not know fear......

What about that sudden jolt, that grappled hold of the throat, that anxiety in the gastric pit of your stomach? Your ego tickles at your trauma but this time your reaction is not to laugh; you flee while your nerves send signals causing you to choke. And just like that you're triggered!

 An indescribable sensation that instigates flight because just that fleeting second sent you into the guts of despair that you had worked so desperately to crawl right out of........Trauma is pain that disguises itself into the fabric of our being and just when you think you're come close to the light, you can feel its thread waeving through your vessels; walls crumbling as your world starts to shake , more ferociusly than it ever has.

There's no ultimate and complete healing. It's only a facade. There's only days where the volcano is dormant and times when the volcano erupts and the lava emerges. And flows and flows and flows. 

It is in these times though, that you find out exactly what you are made of...............

Should you allow the trauma to take you back to the point where you crash and burn and scorn and fury or do you allow the pain to sit with you for a while, absorb it and then release it to face another day? Will you be the target for the trigger or will you bleed then resuscitate?

Be triggered but do not stay triggered.

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